Um... Yeah..

[Tessa]

But, I just really wanted to be one.. Just a regular sub-gm.. I tried my best, and it still didn't work.. After hearing about gms.. I wanted to be one.. I wanted to do events and such, but the only one I would probably know is pvp.. Couldn't someone just tell me.. ? It was in my dreams.. And I just.... really wanted to be a gm, to help.. But I guess I wouldn't be good enough, oh well.. I figured maybe there was no way in my life that I could be one.. Maybe when I'm 25, with 2 kids, live in a 2-story house, go to computer school, maybe, just maybe I could be a gm.. But maybe's most likely turn into a 'no', don't they? This might have been the only time I could have ever been a gm... Well, you never know, it could have been.. And I already see the new gm.. (Congratz to you) Which one of these aren't I? Trustworthy, caring, responsibility, respect, citizenship, fairness.. Just tell me.. Now isn't that all you need to be a gm? Why can't I learn stuff along the way? Right now my head just bobs with questions.. And yet I have no answers.. It just really bugs me... 'You can't change a person's personality (Because that's just how they are.. You can't change who they/them/him/her/you are.), but you can learn about anything.' Anything you want.. Well, what if I learned something about computers.. Can I be a gm then? Probably not.. I'm willing to do anything just to be a gm, and work hard at it.. I know I don't have what it takes, I know that, but why can't I learn along the way? I know like 1/4 about computers right now, but can't people *teach* me anything? I'm sure theres someone out on the forums/server, someone who knows tons of stuff about computers and how the glitch and stuff.. I may be young, but I'm not afraid to tell anyone how I feel right now.. I just wish you could've seen me when pandora said 'no'.. I am a very sensitive person.. and I get depressed (mostly) very easily.. Instead of just saying 'no' blankly to you.. Why not just say 'I'm sorry, right now you do not have the requirements/abilities to do so and so.. But you can learn it at this website or from this person..' Why? I just don't get it.. (By the way, I'm not trying to make pandora the bad guy, just expressing how I feel) I never got to say how I feel on here and now I'm going to and theres nobody who's going to stop me.. Either I've been afraid or not wanting to lose friends but I really want you guys how I feel.. As if you guys were in my place. I'm sorry, the picture on the pictures is wrong, thats not me, I was afraid people were to say something about how my real pictures look.. I will show you my REAL one to show that I'm sorry.. I haven't really been acting myself because I was afraid.. That doesn't mean I don't trust all of you, but I'm only 13, you know? I'm not really suppose to show or give any information out, but.. I just want to show how sorry I am.. I'm tired of typing right now.. so, until next time..